Saturday, January 5, 2008

LIZA'S BAPTISM AND SOME RAMBLING

This is a picture of my granddaughter, who was baptized today. She is barefoot because by the time we got to her house, after the baptism, she had already changed out of her church clothes and I made her change back so I could take a picture. She looks like she's trying to be patient with me, doesn't she? She really wants to go play with her cousins.

Her Dad had changed too and I made him change back. I'm bossy that way.

He baptized and confirmed her a member of the church and gave her the gift of the Holy Ghost. I gave a talk on the Holy Ghost before the baptism. I tried to make it simple for her and another darling little boy who was being baptized too. It was a beautiful day for us and for Liza. I am so happy for her.





She will do well in this life. She is a sensitive little soul, very caring, very loving and a hard worker. And loved by her Daddy.


Here is my son, mugging for the camera with Phil. He's such a joker, my boy. As you can see, Phil loves it.


I'd show you the picture of me but, sadly, I look my age and it makes me ill so there will be no illness here today.

This is the backyard. I am so happy to learn how to download pictures that I take pictures of everything, except for my old self. This is the arbor that one of my other sons, Bentley and his new wife, Trisha, stood in front of at their wedding reception a year ago last August. It was so hot we thought we'd die and now look at it.


That's the way things are. You can hardly stand whatever you are going through, sometimes--not the wedding , it was a wonderful thing--but I'm speaking metaphorically here--I got off on this tangent remembering the heat at the reception.
So, you are going through a bad time, a hard trial, maybe, you are despondent and sad or anxious or however you experience tough times. I get a horrible anxious feeling in the pit of my stomach and I imagine the worst. Then, six months later, you have gotten through that time and you look back and can think of it differently. I often am able to write about times of stress with humor, later--not that I'm successful at the humor but you know what I mean, at least I can see it differently. Some people can't. They never let go. They remember and are angry or sad or hurt or whatever it is that they feel justified about.

I am sad to have to admit that I am that way too with some things and wish I weren't. My birth dad got on a private plane in a blizzard when I wasn't quite two years old, with my mom pleading for him not to go. The plane crashed and she never saw him alive again. I have been living with that abandonment all my life. Angry at times, hurt at others, feeling like I was not important. I have got to learn to let it go. To realize that he, my birth father, has other responsibilities. One of them may be to watch over me, to whisper in my ear when I need help or comfort. Do I realize that? Now, as I'm writing this, I do, but not as I live my life, realizing I didn't know him, wasn't taught by him, didn't learn the things that he held dear.

Well, I had no idea this post was going this direction. Maybe I needed to think this through a bit. I really do need to let it go and not feel cheated. Mom did remarry and Daddy loved me with all his heart. He was a good father, he even taught me to drive my sister's Army jeep which is more than any father should have to do. That is another story for another time. What a dear, patient, Daddy he was.

Okay, enough of that. This is the arbor up close.


And Chloe, who lives outside and loves it. I wanted to take a picture of of Pinky--the cat--with Kate, the four-year-old, but Pinky was asleep on the arm of the couch and Kate somersaulted onto the couch and flipped Pinky, head over tail, right on the floor. Poor now-awake Pinky was frozen, wondering how he got to the floor. Walter, the pup was banned to Chloe's doghouse until all the company was gone so no pictures of him either.

This last one I loved for no reason.


Have a great Sunday one and all. Thanks for stopping by and wading through my pictures and odd thoughts.

7 comments:

Lee W. said...

Lovely photos. Isn't it amazing what a little perspective can do? As far as your dad, don't you see that you weren't cheated- you were given the gift of a loving step-father as a result. That makes you lucky! It wasn't your father's destiny to be in your life, but perhaps is was your stepfather's destiny.

Kathy said...

Good morning Lynne!
Thanks for sharing your family on your Granddaughter's special day.
and your thoughts....
Peace.

Chaotic Joy said...

I have found that while I make mountains out of molehills while experiencing them I rarely remember the bad, except in a detached "How silly was it I stressed about that" kind of way. Even the memories of the truly bad things fade over time. It has given me some new perspective to learn that it's the happy times that stick with me. So I should dwell on those more.

Your granddaughter is very lovely.

Kathy said...

I'm back... was reading some of your previous posts and had to let you know that I found Sept 18th hilarious!

Cindy said...

Lynne, your granddaughter is beautiful. We get to experience the baptism of our first grandchild in March. Very exciting.
I love it that you can post pictures now!!

Missy said...

Lynne, I'm so sorry about your biological father. Having lost my father (he abandoned us) at age 3 it leaves an ache that never seems to heal. I was also blessed with a stepfather but still...

On to more glorious things...your dear granddaughter is lovely. What a blessed day. Congratulations.

Hey it's Amy Shipp said...

What beautiful pictures! Congratulations to your grand daughter. :)